"CONFUSION" --can't find any solution!

i love him.
but does he really love me that much?

i'm confused as well as bothered by this.
lagi nalang ako ang nagbibigay.
lagi nalang ako ang umiintindi..
laging ako na lang ang humihingi ng sorry kahit
siya naman ang talagang may mali.

kahit galit ako, tinitiis ko
kasi alam ko na kung ako ang magagalit
sa huli, ako pa rin ang hihingi ng tawad.
ako pa rin ang gumagawa ng paraan para magkaayos kami.

di ba dapat siya ang sumusuyo sa akin?
di ba dapat siya ang mas dapat magpakita ng effort sa
relasyon namin?
di ba?

eh bakit lumalabas na ako pa ngayon ang parang may gusto lang
na tumagal kami?

di ko naman kayang bumitaw sa relasyon dahil
talagang mahal na mahal ko siya!

pero ako talaga ay naguguluhan nah.
kung mahal mo ang isang tao, di ba gusto mong malaman iyon ng lahat!
eh ba't parang ayaw niyang ipagsabi ko sa iba, lalong lalo na
sa mga kapwa namin kakilala na mag ON na kami?
sabi pa niya na sa aming dalawa nalang daw ang tungkol doon?

di naman ako manhid nuh.
gets ko kung anong gusto niyang mangyari.
may pa "proud-proud" pa siyang sinabi noon na naging kami.
eh ano iyon????

gosh
iba talaga kapag mahal mo ang isang tao ano?
nagiging manhid ka.
nawawala ang pride mo!
nagiging MARTYR ng napakabooonggga!!!!

hhhuhuhuhu
hope na we can fix this!
i don't want to end up deely crying and seriously injured (emotionally)!

paita ani uhy!!!!
God please lead me to my right mind
coz i think i'm slowly losing it!!!

"a night to remember"

. i really love him najud!
i'm gonna miss him so much since his gonna transfer to PALOMPON!!!

hahay! at least i experienced once again, a night with him. wa ra
talking2x. chika2x. heehehe

hope his really saing the truth when he told me he
"really really loves me". how nice if it is really true!
(tinuod manj\ jud. O_O

hehehe
i would like to utter my one sweet goodbye to my one and only love
: my boyfriend:
"kenneth louisse piramide"

keep safe my love!

Charmos ginamos
hehehe ♥♥♥

"away-bati"

my diary for today is a song!! all the things i wanna tell today
is ll stated in the song!!!

here it goes:

Puro away, napapansin mo ba
Mamaya ngingiti, mamaya ngingiwi
Puro tampuhan, walang katapusan
Mamaya hihinto, 'di ka na kikibo

REFRAIN 1
'Di naman sa sinasabing nagsasawa na
Ang akin lang naman, pwedeng ayusin pa ba
Kung ayos lang sa 'yo ang ganito
Sige na nga, magtitiis na lang ako

CHORUS
Kasi nga mahal kita
'Di naman pwedeng sabihing ayaw ko na
Kasi nga mahal kita

Konting masabi, naiinis agad
Ako ba ang mali, oo ba o hindi
Isang buong araw, 'di pwedeng walang sigawan
Ako na ang mali, laging nagtitimpi

REFRAIN 2
'Di mo naman aamining kasalanan mo na
Nasasaktan na ako, hoy, ano ka ba
Kung ayos lang sa 'yo ang ganito
Sige na nga, magtitiis na lang ako

[Repeat CHORUS]

REFRAIN 3
'Di naman sa sinasabing nagsasawa na
Ang akin lang naman pwedeng ayusin pa ba
Bakit ba kasi ang daming pinagtatalunan
Sige na nga, 'di naman kita kayang iwanan

[Repeat CHORUS]

Ayoko lang ng ganito
Sumasakit na ang ulo ko
Away-bati tayo

Mahal kita
Kaya 'di ko sasabihing ayoko na
Kasi nga mahal kita

Ayoko lang ang ganito
Sumasakit na ang ulo ko
Away-bati tayo, hoh hoh

LOVELIFE?

last march 18, i said "YES" to the guy i really really like!
we dated that night and that made me superbly HAPPY!!!
but the next day, he ignored me. as well as the following days
and that was during our FINALS exam.
it was quite difficult to concentrate on studying whilst my mind
was off somewhere in outerspace!!!

i cried, i was mad, i took pity on myself.
and keep on asking one question all over again:
"did i really fall for the wrong guy? why did i answer him
with "yes"? why? why? why him?"

these words keep haunting me and turns out to havebad results
on my exams! i HATE it!

but now that scholl year's over, fate went backwards.
he was quite good to me after the finals week.
we went out together and that erased my anger towards him.

kadali ra bah nako ma.uto uhy! dali ra ayo nawa ako kalagot sa iya.
maybe, i really do LIKE and LOVE him. and i am BLINDED by this.

it's summer and we kept contact.
everyday we call each other and that is enough to make my day complete.
his sweet and caring, but i still can't erase the doubt that his just playing with me.
it's difficult to trust someone who is far from you. specially when some girl from his past
is just near him. VERY NEAR HIM> i keep getting jealous.
i should really be thankful that he tells me everything, but it really hurts!
i now that he still love that girl but i love to believe on what he always tell me
"that he loves me now more than rhea! and he trusts me and that he will never ever leave me"!

HAHAHAH ACES! acetoryahee kaayo.
but it makes me smile and gives me a warm feeling al over!

how much i love this guy?
more than you know.
since he is the reason why i broke my own rules and principles.
and that is not to get involve on such relationships until i graduate!
he made me think that i would love to take the risks if it was HIM!!

i really do hope he can return all the love i am giving him!
i can't quite imagine myself after a break-up or something.
but i will surely reover fast and never ever get my emotions too ATTACHED
next time around!

if this won't work out, this relationship, i will still be thankful that
something wonderful like him happened to meh!!

KENNETH LOUISSE PIRAMIDE!!!!

♥♥♥